Hello there, The angel from my nightmare,
Hey, Mr. Know It All, Well ya think you know it all, but ya don't know a thing at all. When somebody tells you something 'bout you. Think that they know you more than you do. So you take it down another pill to swallow. Cause Baby you don't know a thing about me, you don't know a thing about me! Maybe I'm misunderstood, maybe you're not seeing, the side of me you should.... Maybe I'm crazy? Maybe I've just had enough? Maybe it's time to change?
Everybody's talkin', but they don't say a thing. They look at me with sad eyes but I don't want their sympathy. Why'd you have to go and make a mess like that? Have you ever been low? Have you ever had a friend that let you down so? Cause what you did was low. I forgive you, I forgive me. Now when do I start to feel again? I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well.
Oh I, had a lot to say. Cuz everything inside, it never comes out right. I'm sorry I'm bad. I can't take it back. You get older and blame turns to shame. My eyes are open wide, and by the way, I made it through the day. I've done the best I can. I'm not angry, I'm just saying.....Sometimes goodbye is a second chance.
And, I don't know, this could break my heart or save me? Nothings real, until you let go completely. So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving. So here I go with all my fears weighing on me. Picked all my weeds, but kept the flowers. But I know, it's never really over. At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me. Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? Is this what it feels like to really CRY? I told you everything, opened up and let you in. You made me feel alright, for once in my life. Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be, so together but broken up inside. You think you got the best of me? Think you had the last laugh? Baby, you don't know me cause you're dead wrong! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. But there's a side to you that I never knew, all the things you'd say, they were never true.
Have you ever been hated or discriminated against, I have. Emotions run deep as ocean's explodin', tempers flaring, just blow 'em off, and keep goin' not takin nothin' from no one, give 'em hell long as I'm breathin', keep kicking ass in the mornin' and takin' names in the evening. Leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinager in they mouth, see they can trigger me but they'll never figure me out. But tonight, I'm cleanin' out my closet. I got some skeletons in my closet and I don't know if no one knows it, so before they throw me inside my coffin and close it, I'ma expose it. I'll take you back to '73. I maybe made some mistakes but I'm only human, but I'm enough to face them today. What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb.
Let me put it to you this way, how is was. Sneakin' in her room when her momma's knocked out. Tryin' to have his way and little (Anya) says ouch. She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her. She tries to tell her mom but her momma don't believe her. (Anya's) stuck up in a world on her own. Forced to think that Hell is a place called home. Nothin' else to do but get some clothes and pack. She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back. Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises, Teachers ask questions, she's makin' up excuses. Bleedin' on the inside, cryin' on the out. It's only one girl who really knows what she's about.
Yes I think I'm okay. I walked into the door again. If you ask that's what I'll say. And it's not your business anyway. I guess I'd like to be alone. With nothing broken, nothing thrown. Just don't ask me what it was. You just don't argue anymore. Just don't ask me how I am. Little girl hiding underneath the bed. Was it something I did? Must be something I said? I leave the light on. 17 and I'm all messed up inside. I cut myself just to feel alive. 21 on the run from myself, and everyone. I don't know what to do? Can the damage be undone? I swore to God that I'd never be what I've become. I'm gonna bathe myself in a wishin' well. Pretty scars from cigarettes, I never will forget. I'm still afraid to be alone. Wish that moon would follow me home. So I leave the light on. I ain't that bad, I'm just messed up. I ain't that sad, but I'm sad enough.
They cry in dark, so you can't see their tears. They hide in the light, so you can't see their fears. Forgive and forget, all the while love and pain become one and the same. In the eyes of a wounded child, you shouldn't have to pay for your love with your bones and your flesh.
Because--hell, hell is for children! So maybe now you see why I have become what I didn't want to admit.
Because--hell, hell is for children! So maybe now you see why I have become what I didn't want to admit.
I let the phone ring, why won't you believe me. I wait for silence, takes a lot not to answer. But the war is over. This is not my surrender. I'm not running for cover now. Could you go where people can see, someone like me? Could you do that? If you're hating me, do it honestly.
There's a place that I know. It's not pretty there and few have ever gone. If I show it to you now, will it make you run away? Everybody's got a dark side. Hear me, I'm cryin' out, I'm ready now. Find me, I'm lost inside the crowd. It's getting loud, I need you to see, I'm screaming for you to please hear me! I'm restless and wild, I fall, but I try. I need someone to understand. Can you hear me? I'm lost in my thoughts. And baby I've fought, for all that I've got. Can you hear me?
How many times do I have to try to tell you. That I'm sorry for the things I've done. Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut? Some things are better left unsaid. But they still turn me inside out. This is the book I never read. These are the words I never said. This is the fear. This is the dread. These are the contents of my head. And this is what they represent. And this is how I feel. Do you know how I feel ? 'Cause I don't think you know how I feel. I don't think you know what I feel. You don't know what I feel.
So, I'm already gone!!!
Anya*
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