Striving for Splendor

This is my first blog and my first post. I am a soon to be divorced mother of 4 kids that has had a pretty rough life so far. I want to write about my life going through a divorce, and finding love again (because I am a very passionate person, I WILL find love again) I will not give up and think all men are pigs and assholes. They are not! I don't love nasty people. I give everyone a chance. This isn't gonna be some man bashing site. This is a self-exploration site, and a place I will write about the "Splender" in my life. I won't ever use real names.

First, let me tell you my name. My name is Anya Adelyte, and I am 38 years old. I love the outdoors, the smells of nature, and hiking. I do suffer from Chronic Depression and Anxiety, but I believe this is related to my marriage situation and will resolve itself once this whole divorce is final. Because I am generally a happy, spunky person, sometimes even a bit flaky and like I said VERY passionate. I am in love with being in love. Unfortunately, I've been IN ABSOLUTE LOVE with one person and I will call him Romeo, as in Romeo and Juliet. My parents kept us apart and well, I been always trying to find the perfect replacement to my Romeo (whom I still talk to and in the past TRIED to start another relationship during a seperation with now husband for about 4 months) Well, Romeo, him and I had the best chemistry. It WAS love, I wanted to be with him forever, but in order to keep this blog "Anonymous" I need to try to stick to the present. We had so much passion, the sex was amazing, we could go for hours and hours. In my marriage now, I think I had more sex with Romeo in the almost 4 months we got reunited 5 years ago, than what I had with now husband of 16 years. I was also married one other time for about 9 months (hey, at least I beat out Kim Kardashion), and that was just to get back at Romeo and that ended badly. I won't go there, he was awful and loved someone else.

I also am going to be having surgery next week. Total Hysterectomy, Cystocele, and Rectocele. This is gonna be painful, so I will write about healing from that. LOL It may be out of this world since I will be on some heavy duty pain meds like Morphine and stuff. Those will be interesting.

Another thing I will warn you about. I am very graphic and will speak my mind. I will swear, talk about sex, illnesses and the whole nine yards and I hope no children will see this site. I don't want religious fanatics emailing me and telling me I need to be saved and /or I'm going to hell. Please, if you can't handle what I talk about, stay out. Like, if you can't stand the heat, stay outta the kitchen. Well, just don't flame me if you're offended. That is why there is a good size X in the upper right corner for ya.

Like I said, I am new to this blogging and I will get better as I go along. Give me a chance.
Anya