Bullying

Today, I went to my first meeting on bullying. Marcia McEnvoy, Ph. D. facilitated the  meeting. I wish more people showed up. I was the "actor" or "guinea pig" if you say, on teaching techniques on how to handle bullying, which she prefers to call BAD BEHAVIOR!!!! Many, in fact all kids and adults act on bad behavior in their life, but most are NOT bullies. Bullies stand for about 15% of the communities because bullies are people who love to hurt people, get off on hurting people and crave and function on hurting people. Most people don't do this. Most people pick on others because they are having a bad day, and need to take it out on someone. Not saying this is right, but it is an epidemic going on around the world. We are desensitized to being rude and mean. Look at all the sitcoms out there, most of them the  punchline is  insulting someone. Look at all the violence on TV, the movies in the media. We are bombarded with rude, mean and disruptive behaviors. So, of course, it effects people, especially the young and impressionable people.

I for one am glad I went to the meeting. I know all I need to know about starting my non-profit and I know it won't be easy. I have a lot stacked against me and many people who think being bullied or bullying is a "rite of passage". It don't have to be, and it effects many kids/adults all their lives.

I will type more about this when I have more time and am not depressed. The last few days have been rough. I think I am coming down with the flu or a cold. My neck is very sore, I am achy, tired, yet, I can't sleep, my head is racing and I feel so drained and fatigued. I am having wacky dreams that keep me awake when, in fact, I do fall asleep. I haven't worked out in 2 days and I binged on chocolate and Harvest Sun Chips and Salsa. I know, it isn't too bad, but it's a START!!! I need to jump BACK on the wagon and get with it. I need to take care of myself. It's hard, it's really hard when all you want to do is sleep and do nothing. A vegetable! I offended any parapelegic right now saying that. Because I know they want to get off their butts and walk and run and workout and would do anything to not be depressed laying in bed, and here, I am wanting to "lay in bed" and just short of throwing a pity party, I need to get real!!! So tomorrow, I am re-evaluating my life. I am turning down the phone, and taking care of myself to get myself back on track. I will write until I come to the conclusion on how I can fix my brain to not feel this way. What the hell is wrong with it? I do have group therapy tomorrow, but I will not offer any detail on what I am going through. I will get healthy advice and coping skills and get back to getting me better.

Have a good night my readers, my friends!